Sometimes I wonder if instead of being a fitness instructor I should become a film director and work with the biggest stars like Beyonce or Lady Gaga and create video clips for them:D Hahah!
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Accepting my body image was always a problem for me.
Looking back, there was always something I would like to change in the way I looked ,from my hair, face to whole body!
And now, when I'm pregnant and my body is changing so rapidly, there is no time to complain, ha!
Every week I look slightly different. My belly is growing, my breast are getting bigger and bigger , my face is changing and every time I step up on the scales, it shows bigger number!
It might be hard to have positive body image during pregnancy,especially nowadays, where "the perfect body" is desired by most of us.
But growing a human being inside my body is a great reason to embrace and celebrate the changes, and I look forward to the challenge of giving birth to my baby girl!
And here's what I do to love my body image during pregnancy:
1. I exercise.
That help me to stay strong and feel sexy.
2. I style myself.
I try to dress fashionably.
I also invested into key pieces like maternity jeans and trousers.
Maternity clothes might be expensive but believe me, you don't need much!
For t-shirts I go with larger size, and that works fine for me :)
3. I eat well.
That helps me to gain the weight gradually and get the right nutrition, which gives me energy to take care of myself ♥
4. I take care of myself.
I rest when I need to, and every time I go out, I put my make up on and style my hair.
5. I have a good support network.
This one is the most important for me!
I surround myself with positive people who understand all changes pregnant women is going through.
Well....I know there is a few good weeks to Easter, but when it gets brighter outside I'm starting to think about my favourite holiday and my favourite season - Spring :D
I love when the Sun is waking me up in the morning ,like today, when the birds are singing outside the window and seagulls shit on my car. Ah..... " What a wonderful woooorld" ♫ ♫ ♫
The days are getting longer and there is more energy and ideas to implement.
One evening I had the idea to make Easter cards for my family. They were so easy to make, so I decided to share with you that simple concept.
I wake up in the morning and thousands of thoughts run through my head.
Should I do this or that? Should I make a breakfast or do the laundry? Maybe will be better if I do this first , then that, and that...
I plan my whole day long before I get out of bed. I haven't done anything yet and I'm already tired!
What to do? What to say? What to buy? What would be the best for me and people around me?
Sometimes it's so difficult to make a decision!
Why? Because I always want to make the right one. I also worry what other people might think. I always look for hidden meanings in conversation, pick apart all details ,what triggers a cascade of thoughts.
I am pretty sure that if I would act instead of thinking and trying to be perfect, much more things could be done and created by now.
Overthinking is not productive and it does not do me any good. In fact, it holds me back from being spontaneous and creative.
So get out of your head and trust your gut! - I say to myself - because however much critical thinking you'll apply to a decision ,you may be wrong. Ha! But it doesn't matter because there is no right or wrong decision. "You could do this way, or that way , and either way will eventually get you to where you want to be".
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A few days ago I recorded the song.
It took me few hours to rehearse, but the whole process of playing ukulele and singing made very happy. I created something and I decided to share it with the world. Without much hesitation I published it on my Youtube channel. But then something happened.
One inconspicuous thought infected my mind. And then another one, and another, and finally I started to doubt in myself.
I shouldn't share this video.
I'm not good enough.
I don't sing well.
I mispronounced few words! :/
What other people will think about it?
And the more I thought about it, the worse I felt. :(
Finally, I removed the video. I felt defeated by my own thoughts. And then I thought - why I think so much? Ha! Why I always want to be perfect instead of being myself?
So there is my video, uploaded again. Because it doesn't matter if it's perfect, or not. It's something I've created, and I enjoyed it! :D :D :D
You'd be surprised how good quality children's clothes can be found there. I was very surprised!
From time to time I visit second hand shops but I've never paid attention to children's sections. Till now. Recently I got so many baby clothes that we needed to buy a new chest of drawers for all that stuff! And I need to say, they are as good as new. Ha! Or even better because for that price you can't go wrong.
Children's clothes are usually sold three pieces for €1! Which is ridiculous because I'm talking here about clothes from such brands like Next, Mama&Papas , Mothercare, H&M or Zara.
So here I am, with drawers full of clothes for our baby girl who is still in my belly :P
When you feel depressed, worthless or hopeless, chatting with a friend might be simply not enough.
In my experience, people around us are often not able to help us when we are depressed , because they don't now how /they also are going through some rough shit right now or struggling with unresolved issues from the past.
Note! Saying:
"I feel the same."
" It's no big deal, I was going through the worst stuff. "
"Everything will be ok, you'll see."
...to somebody who is reaching out for your help, is the worst things you can ever say!!!
Life those days might be overwhelming for most of us. With all that pressure we are putting on ourselves, sometimes is really hard to cope with everyday tasks.
In my opinion, if you are going to get some professional help , you already made a huge step forward in improving quality of your life!
It's not easy to open up to a person you practically don't know and talk about your problems, fears and worries. Sometimes it will even take some time to find the right psychologist / counselor, but it will pay off, trust me on this one!
It took me 4 years of counselling and psychotherapy to be where I am today and it wasn't easy neither fun. But thanks to my self motivation the quality of my life and the relationships with other people are incomparably better.
I learned how to trust myself, how see the world around me in a different way and how to not allow someone else to control how I feel.
I'm still working on myself , on my self - esteem and destructive thoughts , learning how to set the boundaries between difficult people, but at this point I'm able to do it on my own.
I read books, articles, talk to people who I trust. I keep a diary where I record my thoughts and also I blog. It helps me to stay positive, keep focusing on what's NOW and be more aware of who I am and how I feel. I think is nothing shameful about seeking for professional help. In fact, you are very brave and self motivated if you decided to do it!
And if that would be not enough, we brought Canarian Princess from our latest trip ♥♥♥
We are waiting for you baby girl to join our Kick-Ass team! :p
Year 2015 was truly amazing!!! And there is more to come in 2016 :D
What I would like to focus on in this year? Well...I will continue what I started few year ago, which is becoming my greatest version and make my dreams come true!
I also want to learn how to say at loud what I really mean , express my opinion regardless of the opinions of others. So help me God because I going to make some enemies, haha! :P
